Joined Nov 15 2010
58 years old
According to my psychologist I was bipolar in the womb (I was an "accident" and apparently not a very happy one).
I was then sexually abused and later on I was raped. I had two abortions because I could, and I was extremely promiscuous before I met my wonderful husband who accepted me warts and all. I was only diagnosed 10 years ago, was put on a fantastic combo of meds and did well. I went to university full time at the age of 40 (for the first time), and graduated with a BA in Jouirnalism and Communications. I then moved to Afghanistan and later Thailand with my husband. The reason I mention overseas, is because those were the best times of my life. I displayed no inward or outward symptoms of bipolar. When we came back (four years ago), all the crap started again. I have been hospitalised three times for suicidal tendencies. But in the last 8 months have never been better. So much so, that with my husband's support I have gone off all my meds except my anti-depressants (because my only major problems were suicide, I decided not to take a chance).Eventually I told my sister (I work for her), after I had been off the meds for three months, and I now have her support.
The positive side effects of not being on meds are being able to feel emotion again - positive and negative, my memory has come back, I have a bit of a libido again and so far the only mildly negative effect is my anger. Anger was one of the main problems/symptoms I had, and it's been very much under control for the last 10 years. Because I am aware of it, and so is my family, everybody helps me to get through the anger.
I am a very blessed person. I know that it might be tomorrow that I might have to go back on the meds, but for now I am finally living.